How I dealt with the loss & pregnancy again.

 One of the most commonly asked questions I have been getting the last 2 weeks is how did I deal with the worry, anxiety, sadness after a loss and getting pregnant again. 

I would say that this time around my emotions, reaction etc was less emotional and more matter of the fact. If you have been following me on TikTok throughout the first pregnancy and loss you know that when I found out the first time it was overwhelming, emotional, heartfelt. This pregnancy I didn't cry (still really haven't if I'm being honest) I took a whole week to contact my doctor and ask for a HCG & Progesterone blood test verses last time it was minutes after finding out. I had to really take my time with every moment and feeling and I had the thought in my head that I am just "riding these next few weeks out" until my scheduled ultra sound. 

Again as the worry goes I had to just ride it out and be matter of the fact. I kept repeating to myself that if something happens it's out of my control and of course I will be devastated but I really felt like being very realistic and factual of what could happen made me more calm in a weird way. I've literally never been more relaxed my whole life than in this pregnancy and I really pat myself on the back for that because all I worked on after the MC was on myself. 

I took a time out on taking supplements, I said no to people and events that were not good for my mental health. For the first time in my life nothing was more important than myself. I meditated, took multiple walks a day, relaxing baths with meditation sounds, got more into crystals and spirituality, made some beauty appointments. Nothing was more important than my mental health and if I needed to not text or call someone back because I was feeling overwhelmed...I didn't 

Having a loss definitely robs you of all the moments, the pure happiness, the oblivian of what could go wrong, telling your family and friends and I feel for anyone that has had the joy of finding out that you are pregnant and then had it taken back from them. It's not fair and knowone should go through the heartache. It's truly something you will never forget. 

I hope this answers the question, I feel like I have word vomit and could go on and on. 

To anyone reading this and going through it. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF. 

A book that was recommended to me from a follower called Spirit Babies really helped me as well. If you are spiritual you will definitely love this book. I loved hearing about how the babies choose their parents before making their way to earth... high recommend it. 

FIND THE BOOK HERE- https://amzn.to/3v1uG7f